Scary eyes
Waste | at 02:08 AM
Oh no... not agaaaain ! I thought I was cure of this nasty habit, but look at the time it's 3 am and I'm still up, too alive and kicking to go to bed just yet. If I want to waste time before hitting the hay I have much more important things to do than writing in my Tabulas though, so I'll keep it short (and I just realized I forgot to post my game of the day yesterday).
One thing at the moment worries me terribly much, it's my sight, it's so bad. I should go to the eye doctor for a check-up and definitely get new glasses, everything is starting to get really fuzzy around me, I even think I start to have slight troubles reading the computer screen (my head tends to bend forward, my eyes to focus harder, etc). The reason why I haven't been to the doctor yet and I'm still reluctant to go is because my sight was already so bad that the fact it's still worsening is, literally, scaring the shit out of me. When is it going to stop ? Will it stop at all ? Why is it going so bad, is it just because I'm getting older, did I spoil so bad because of computers, is there something else, some other problem behind it ? And many, many other scary questions I'm too afraid to face. So I just try to ignore it for the time being, as impossible as it may seem. For two weeks now, I think my sight has dropped dramatically, and within a year, I think it has really worsened considerably.
Don't want to think of it, don't want to think of it... but why is this happening and what's next ? And worst of all, there is this adjective in my mind always: irreversible. Sight loss is irreversible.
Today's retro game: Dr. Mario (cure my eyes !)
Today's recent game: X-Men: Next Dimension (should I wish for Cyclop's eyes ?)
One thing at the moment worries me terribly much, it's my sight, it's so bad. I should go to the eye doctor for a check-up and definitely get new glasses, everything is starting to get really fuzzy around me, I even think I start to have slight troubles reading the computer screen (my head tends to bend forward, my eyes to focus harder, etc). The reason why I haven't been to the doctor yet and I'm still reluctant to go is because my sight was already so bad that the fact it's still worsening is, literally, scaring the shit out of me. When is it going to stop ? Will it stop at all ? Why is it going so bad, is it just because I'm getting older, did I spoil so bad because of computers, is there something else, some other problem behind it ? And many, many other scary questions I'm too afraid to face. So I just try to ignore it for the time being, as impossible as it may seem. For two weeks now, I think my sight has dropped dramatically, and within a year, I think it has really worsened considerably.
Don't want to think of it, don't want to think of it... but why is this happening and what's next ? And worst of all, there is this adjective in my mind always: irreversible. Sight loss is irreversible.
Today's retro game: Dr. Mario (cure my eyes !)
Today's recent game: X-Men: Next Dimension (should I wish for Cyclop's eyes ?)
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